ANGIE: Hi, I'm Angie.
Text on screen: Angie
ANGIE: My husband's name is Jason. We have two boys and two girls.
When I was first diagnosed metastatic, I, I went through a couple of weeks of just complete shock, then I kind of got mad and angry. I was just like, “How is this even happening.” I didn't even understand. I was just in a complete fog, just a mess, a mess.
After I was diagnosed and I didn't know anyone who had metastatic breast cancer, so I didn't know like, what to expect. It was new to me to feel isolated like I did.
It's not easy, definitely not easy. And there's so many different emotions with it. You're thinking about your family and you're thinking about your friends and as I'm making friends with other women who have, or other people who have metastatic breast cancer, I'm losing some of those friends. They pass and I don't know if I'm dealing with that so well, it's really hard to lose friends and then to realize, you know, my family is going to be losing me.
My metastatic diagnosis has really impacted my relationship with my husband because he's in it just as much as I am, and he just feels so helpless. So, we are looking into counseling to help us.
When you have metastatic breast cancer, you live from scan to scan.
My kids are all so different. They just see me as strong and hopeful, and positive. So I think that's really helped them. But they have each other and they lean on each other for, for talking.
I just want others to know, you know, a metastatic or a terminal diagnosis of any kind doesn't mean your life is ending right there at that moment. You still have lots of living to do yet. To me, there's no other way to live than to be happy and just make it the best.
Now I take the time for myself and with crafting, I have my own craft room, my little happy place and I just go in there and do different projects and it's really peaceful.
I have a long to-do list of things that I want to do for the kids. I have my wedding gown, so I want to have…I was thinking maybe like the ring bearer pillow made out of my wedding gown or something so that if I'm not physically at the kids’ wedding…just something tangible that they can hold and know that I wore it on my wedding day and I'm sending lots of love to them.
Shortly after I was diagnosed metastatic, I can't even remember what drove me to do a search on Facebook and a couple of different groups came up, so I joined them and I'm so grateful for, for finding those Facebook groups because I don't know how well I would have dealt with this diagnosis without the support of, of everyone in those groups.
The first time I went through cancer I didn't, I didn't have any friends that had cancer at that time. And I was okay because I was just focused on the end result of being done with treatment and being cancer- free. And this time around, you know, I need a lot more support because I don't have that, that end date. So I have made friends that are around my age and some that are even younger that are living with metastatic breast cancer and we can just relate to each other.
Seize the day and make the most of it and I am still here. And you know, you might take me eventually, but you're not taking me today and I'm going to beat you today. I'm going to smile and I'm going to hug my kids and snuggle with my puppy and cancer is not going to take that from me today.
Text on screen: No matter how you feel, you don’t have to feel alone.
Angie shares her story
Getting an MBC diagnosis at age 38 after having breast cancer and a mastectomy, Angie felt shocked, devastated, and isolated, as she and her husband struggled to grasp how it would impact their four kids’ futures. But she found support from other people her age living with MBC—and the determination to tough it out.
Seize the day and make the most of it. I'm going to smile and I'm going to hug my kids and snuggle with my puppy and cancer is not going to take that from me today.”— Angie
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